why so snarky? bowl of sadness?

A bit of snarkiness in my twitter timeline over the last few days regarding NaNoWriMo and I find it curious. Why begrudge a sense of a writing community to those for whom it might be important? Who are these self-appointed protectors of the sanctity of process? 

I talked about it with M. this morning and he pointed out that he couldn’t imagine athletes reacting this way: “Oooh, you losers going to all get together and work out on Sunday? Oh, you’re going to help each other get better at your game? Good luck with that. Losers.” 

I’m sure every pursuit has its haters. 

I spent my three pomodoros yesterday worrying over my outline and giving in to waves of self-doubt. But I also put together what I think is kind of a fine - even if a bit melancholy - playlist for the month. 

I played a bit of it in the car this morning for my daughter on our ride into school. The first song was Joel R.L. Phelp’s “Landslide.” She commented on how much she loved it and I told her about how, for a time, I played this and then Fleetwood Mac’s “Landslide” on continuous repeat.

“Why would you do that to yourself?” she asked. A fair question.

“Did you just pull up a chair and some tissues and sit with your bowl of sadness?”

The poet Sandra Simonds has just started an oddly compelling video project that requires her to go to TJ Maxx every day for thirty days. You should probably check that out this month while you’re writing your novel and growing your mustache

This morning, I looked at my outline and figured it wasn’t as bad as I thought it was. It is a place to start. I tweaked my playlist. Here it is. I have not quite figured out the order of songs yet, and I will admit, perhaps to the chagrin of mixtape purists, that there’s been a certain delight to playing it on shuffle, the moment of anticipation when one song ends before the next one begins.

Cape Canaveral / Conor Oberst
Drain You / Horse Feathers
Holocene / Bon Iver
This Woman’s Work / Kate Bush
Landslide / Fleetwood Mac
When I Go Deaf / Low
Pistol Dreams / The Tallest Man on Earth
By the Time It Gets Dark / Yo La Tengo
Escape / Richard Buckner
The Haunted Man / Bat for Lashes
And It’s Alright / Peter Broderick
What We Had / Handsome Furs
Love to the Test / Niki & the Dove
Line by Line / The Walkmen
Hospital Beds / Cold War Kids
Landslide / Joel R. L. Phelps & The Downer Trio

Thank you so much for your comments yesterday. If there’s a way to respond to comments directly, I haven’t figured it out, but I am grateful for them. If you send me a message through the “Ask” box, I will happily continue the conversation. 

See you tomorrow.